She Couldn't Be Ours

As I am sure many of you know by now....we had to release our commitment to the precious little girl that we were so certain was meant to be our daughter. To be honest, I don't want to get into the details via this post. I feel like I have been over it a thousand times and I am mentally exhausted.....

However, now the Lord has given us the new adventure of figuring out who He does intend our daughter to be. One thing is certain....she IS out there. In fact, we may have already found her. ;) But we want to have peace about it...we NEED to have peace about it. Once we commit again we want that to be it (God willing).

Adoption is hard. Have I mentioned this before? Because I seem to have blocked a lot of the stress and anxiety out from last time, haha!

We are still at the very beginning of the process....yes, STILL! However, it is no ones fault and all of our delays have ultimately been the cause of other blessings that the Lord decided to align first. The most recent being a job change for my husband (a huge blessing). But that also delayed the home study because the agency wanted us to wait till he was officially employed so they could have current information etc.....

But now, we are VERY close to having all of our home study paperwork complete. Once it is, then we can begin the formal interviews (we have only had a few informal ones thus far) and then the actual home visit will take place. Those of you who have been through the adoption process probably already know what everything entails....

We are anxious and I am very impatient. I often hate that about myself....I have always been ridiculously impatient. I like things done quickly, efficiently, and with as much detail as possible...none of those things describes adoption.

Today, we spent our evening painting our "soon to be" daughters room. It was this putrid yellow color with hideous peeling wall paper. When we bought this house last December it was easily my most dreaded project. However, it feels good to finally be making that room beautiful.

Zoe and Piper worked hard to help me paint....one thing is certain, whoever their sister is, she can be sure that her room was decorated with love....

That's about all the updates I can muster for the time being. I am trying to get better at blogging, however, most of my time is taken up vlogging via youtube (which I love!). But its always nice to look back and see written thoughts as well.

Until next time....