Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Aching Arms...

I have been avoiding updates....things have just seemed incredibly draining lately.

I felt such a weight off my shoulders when we finished our home study and now I am feeling that weight slowly piling right back on as we work to get the next leg of documents gathered. I know when it is all said and done I will be SO thankful for the journey...but right now I just want my son!!

My arms ache to hold him...

I want him home with his Mommy and Daddy...

sleeping in his OWN room...

being smothered with hugs and kisses from his sisters...

sitting at the dinner table with us...

and worshiping our God in heaven with his FAMILY...

But I also have peace. I know that we are very blessed to be moving along as quickly as we are. I know that soon we will have him in our arms...it just never seems like soon enough.

So what our next step? Where are we currently in the process??

Well, we have completed our home study!!! However, we are holding off on making it "official" until we get a few more documents in to Reeces. We have to make sure that our dossier documents match the home study exactly! So we are stuck while we wait to get those particular dossier documents done! But we are going to do this FRIDAY...so God willing on Friday we will have them all in and we can move on up on Reeces and be one step closer to Aiden.

After we tackle this mountain we have to send documents to USCIS, wait for an appointment, get finger printed, and then wait for official USCIS approval. THEN we will be able to turn in our dossier and apostle documents ( IF I am understanding this right, haha...Lord knows I have learned not to trust myself with time-lining anything.) And then send them to Ukraine and then wait for a travel date...am I missing something?! Probably so....

This week has just been tough. While we are beyond grateful for all the love and support that we do receive from MOST...there are still "key" individuals in our lives that are simply not supportive in the least....

and that's hard....

Its hard to have someone that you love SO much not understand our calling to adopt. The sad part is that I think this person would be 100% supportive if we were not adopting a special needs child....we are constantly badgered with questions and comments like...

"Why do you just adopt a 'normal' child? "....

or " You are ruining Zoe and Pipers life!!" ...

Honestly...I am just over it. As much as it pains me that some people genuinely can't understand I know that I have to leave it up to God. All I can do is pray for God to soften their heart and pray that they gain true understanding. We know without a doubt the path that God has laid before us...

Mission without sacrifice is like Christianity without the cross...

We KNOW there will be many sacrifices; but we likewise see the pure joy that this journey can bring......

The hope...

The love...

The faith...

Adoption is as perfect and flawless as new fallen snow...

because adoption IS Jesus....

it IS the cross...

We have all heard the song...

"But if we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching?
Why aren't His hands healing?
Why aren't His words teaching?
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going?
Why is His love not showing them there is a way?
There is a way..."


It is up to US as a church...


3 comments:

  1. Hi Katherine and Asa. I just wanted to encourage you that Aiden's adoption will NOT ruin your daughters' lives. I speak with experience as a younger sister whose older brother lives with us because he needs family support(he is autistic and also has tourettes). Yes, being in my mid-twenties with two young children and my brother living with us can be challenging. But it is of God. The more we stretch to support him, to serve him, to love him, the more we grow in Christ. We have to deal with our own sin, the sin of selfishness and not dying to ourselves, of not looking to prayer and to Jesus to carry us through sometimes, but we have grown in God and we are learning what LOVE is. The world says "you need more 'me' time, you need to have this time with your husband and kids and NOT have to care for a sibling", but God knows what I need. God knew that it would make a closer relationship between my husband and me. God knew it would teach our children what it is to live out the verse "in whatsoever you do, do it heartily as to the Lord, and not to men", to learn to serve with JOY, looking upward to God and not inward at ourselves. We are blessed. We are so blessed and I know the true reality of living this life as an adult sibling, not just the questions and wondering what it "might" be like. It is fun, it is laughter, it is frustration, it is worshipping God, and it is beautiful. Your girls will grow up to be strong women who know the value of living for what lasts, for what is eternal, and they will have fun, and laughter, and so many precious memories. We're praying for you guys!

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    1. You words are so encouraging!!! We very much appreciate it. We know that this adoption is of God and in the end HE will see it through despite all the hardships that may come with it. There is just no price on saving the life of a child and so we are choosing obedience to our God in heaven...to him be the glory!

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  2. We were told the same things by certain people who were 'key' in our lives before we adopted JP... that his adoption would ruin his older sister's and our lives. Long story short, those people are no longer 'key' people in our lives (and yes, it was painful and we leaned on God A LOT during that transition) but he hasn't ruined his sister's life, he's enriched it. He has enriched all of our lives in many ways we did not expect.

    Peace and prayers for you both! Hope Aiden is home soon, right where he belongs.

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