Sunday, January 20, 2013

Tears and Gods Guidance

Ever since September 2012 I have been working almost none stop gathering paperwork, making appointments, ordering documents, and praying....praying for our son; our precious little boy whom we have never met but that God has laid so heavily on our hearts.

We had the home visit Saturday and ALL the hard work, preparation, and stress ( unnecessary stress)...was suddenly lifted off my shoulders. A BIG hurdle was behind us....and after nearly five months of holding all that stress and anxiety in I literally broke down. Until now I have had to mentally compartmentalize everything....it was the only way I could handle the "big picture" and move forward with the adoption without getting too overwhelmed. My husband happily lent me a shoulder to cry on.

They were tears of relief...

happiness...

and also tears knowing that we still have a long way to go before we can actually bring Aiden home. I am NOT a crier. I sob over the occasional chick flick and other adoptive families blogs but that's really all that will resort me to literal tears.

I realized that this is not just a story of "our adoption journey"....this is about God changing every fiber of our being.

This is Gods redeeming love and his unwavering faith in us....

This is God showing us that he has something greater in store...

This is God....

It's ALL God....

This is about a little boy. An orphan; abandoned and forgotten by his parents, deemed worthless, and set up to spend his life in an institution....

but he is SAVED by Gods grace!!!

He matters. He is important. He is valued. He is loved. He is precious. He is our SON!!!

God has stripped away all of Aidens negative imagery. The words forgotten, lost, abandoned, sick, afraid, blind, non-verbal, worthless...mean NOTHING in the eyes of God; because all he sees is perfection and so that is all we choose to see!!

We are by no means at the end of the line. We have a long journey ahead, a lot more paperwork to get in, a LOT more money to raise, and many more days to be spent in endless prayer...but we know God will see it all through.

So we are taking a deep breath and moving onto the next step!!!

Soon our sweet boy!!

Soon you will be an orphan NO MORE!








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